I wrote the following for ‘Five Minute Friday’.
Right at this point in time, I feel small. Not small as in small child, but small as in not-very-tall, not very strong, and not very clear of mind. It is linked in with the previous entry I posted this morning. With missing someone buckets with whom there are memories… lots of fun, and laughter, private jokes and common interests. An adventure which had only got going and came to an abrupt end. For a long while only numbness, now, only pain.
Small people actually help me find my smile… little ones in the local supermarket who are gurning, until they see my chair, and watch, fascinated, trying to work out what is going on, or the little one in the chair in the street, leg stretched in front of her, her bright pink cast protecting her poorly leg, and a big smile on her face. These precious ones make me feel better, and wish I was small again, when I didn’t know grown up pain.
sat n' all that 
Not sure what happened to my first comment! It seems our hearts are both heavy today. But how good to know we share a Savior who is both Almighty God and Tender Shepherd. Sending you {{hugs}} and smiles 🙂 from across the ocean on the wide Canadian prairies!
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thanks so much for your comment… sending (((hugs))) back to you and praying that Jesus will lift your burden from you!
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Visiting back from FMF. This statement really resonated with me: “With missing someone buckets with whom there are memories… lots of fun, and laughter, private jokes and common interests. An adventure which had only got going and came to an abrupt end.” I have been in the exact same place lately. Exact. Same. Place. I still get periods of extreme loneliness, but it is getting better. The only advice I can give is to find someone, somewhere you can help and do what you can. That has given me a new sense of purpose and also made me realize that the relationship I had wanted so much wasn’t right for me after all. Prayers for heart healing being sent your way.
Thanks for visiting my page, too!
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[…] After all, my life is more than these things. My life is not nearly as varied as I would like; ‘special someone’ is no longer on the scene, I am unable to work, and I’ve even had to cut down on the […]
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